As you all know I am working in the revision and translation of my novel, something that needs a lot of work, so I need a lot of hours. And you may say yes, I know. What’s the problem? The problem is to find the time to do this without feeling guilty.
I am a mom of a 5 year old and a 2 year old that need all my time. The 5 year old goes to preschool but the two year old stays in home all day and he will never let me concentrate. I write when he is taking a nap in the morning. But that isn’t enough if I want to finish my revision – translation before the summer. So sometimes I take an hour at night when the kids go to sleep to write and I feel guilty because that’s the time when my husband and I can be together and talk.
I think this time is important and I don’t want a divorce. I love my husband, he supports me in my crazy life of writer but everything has a limit and I have to spend time with him.
The other problem is Holiday vacations begin next week and I am going to have Carlos also in the house so my time for writing will be null.
Well I guess I can write at two in the morning when everybody is asleep and don’t need anything from me. But I can’t, the doctor told me to sleep every time I could because I started to faint with all the months I expent sleeping poorly with Alex ,my body needs sleep. So no, I can’t.
What am I going to do?
I feel guilty for thinking of ways of expending less time with my family and more with my revision – translation.
Have you felt guilty for expending time writing?