Writing, rejection, hope…

A huge part of being a writer is the dreaded part of waiting and facing rejection. Waiting is hard but rejection is like a bullet to your heart.

When you start dreaming about being a writer you never think about the rough pad ahead of you, you only think about the fabulous life you’ll have being able to write all the wonderful worlds you have in your mind. And why not you also think that everyone will love it as much as you. But then you start the dream, you sit and realize writing wasn’t as easy, but you go through it the best you can so after several blood tears you have your wonderful creation in front of you.

Well maybe it’s not a wonderful creation but you have hope and send it away to find its way into the publishing world. So there’s when the wait begin. There start the constant refreshing of your email for several days until you realize it seems it will not come as fast as you thought.

Until one incredible day you receive the notification that says “You got Mail!!” and your heart stops for the torturous moments it takes for the email to open, in that second you have fear and hope. Until you read and your heart collapses to the ground were you think you will never be able to pick it up.

But the thing is we have to accept it’s a part of the road to take our stories out in the world, as Stanley Ellin says:

“No one put a gun to your head and ordered you to become a writer. One writes out of his own choice and must be prepared to take the rough spots along the road with a certain equanimity, though allowed some grinding of the teeth.”
—Stanley Ellin


After the rejection starts another process, the self-doubt, the idea of throwing everything away, the pain and the tears. But if this is what you love, what really moves you there, slowly filtering into the bad thoughts, will appear hope.

“Was I bitter? Absolutely. Hurt? You bet your sweet ass I was hurt. Who doesn’t feel a part of their heart break at rejection. You ask yourself every question you can think of, what, why, how come, and then your sadness turns to anger. That’s my favorite part. It drives me, feeds me, and makes one hell of a story.”
—Jennifer Salaiz


One thing I recommend and that had keep me going every time is having friends, writer friends, that understand, let you cry but then kick your butt and make you start again. Believe me I could never keep going without my friends and also my hubby.

Another quote on hope I love:

“If you do not hope, you will not find what is beyond your hopes.”
—St. Clement of Alexandra


At last here is what I wrote and felt after a rejection, this is totally and completely mine:

“Sometimes my brain and heart amaze me. They just got hit and I feel like crying but my brain is planning and my heart is hoping.”

—Anabel Gonzalez

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By anabelgonzalezdehernando Posted in writing

Writers are not different from readers when reading.

I have to confess something: I have an addicition to books. I can’t stop buying or reading them. Right now my kindle is loaded with 165 books unread, If I dint’t had a kindle my house would go like this:

Also I have this little mania. I hate to read second books in a series until I have already the third or four or the last one in my kindle. I can’t stand cliffhangers, I’m just too curious to wait. Yes I realize I write those clifhangers too. So when I get my hands on all those books I can read two in a day. I just can’t stop.

Yes I really look like this! Crazy I know!

Don’t make me start with someone interrupting me in a huge emotional scene:

This killing-anyone-who-talks to me energy surrounds me and I have to stop my urges, breathe deep and say: Yes? Although my mind is: don’t you see I’m reading?

When reading as any other person I get to those moments when you want to throw the book, when you didn’t expected what was going to happen but I always pick the book up because it’s that good to call me back.

Yes sometimes I read as a writer and analyze the technique, the words, the writing but when the book is so good I forget about the writer me and become just a simple reader enjoying the magnificent world and characters that are taking my mind in this fantasy.

I’m crazy or it happens to more people?

PS: Yes I love gifs, I have a problem with them and I will try to reduce the number of them I use.

By anabelgonzalezdehernando Posted in reading

That moment when you hate what you love

Yes I have been afraid to admit this, afraid to even think I was really feeling it but I have to accept that I have come to hate GS.

It’s not that I don’t like GS or absolutely adore every character is that I have come to hate opening the file. I have gone through this MS like 15 times, a whole year, really I think if he could talk he would say Oh Gosh here she comes again!

I truly believe in my MS don’t get me wrong and I know that with each revision I have improved it a lot, but sometimes when I go to my files about to click it open once again, my brain is screaming not again!

For all you’re reading you might already deduced I’m going through GS again. Yes, I took a great course of Margie Lawson in deep editing and I want to apply it to GS. So once last time I have to go through it and then let it be.

Because I don’t want to get to do this:

Over editing is a concern in my mind that’s why I’m editing at a slow pace, there’s a thin line between ready and over edited so I don’t want to go over it.

Have you ever felt like this with any of your projects?

By anabelgonzalezdehernando Posted in writing

Another one bites the dust…

 

I did it! I finished another manuscript, all the 75k words of it. The adrenaline and rush of finishing a new dtraft making me feel in heaven!

A heaven were he’s celebrating with me, see how happy he is:

This new MS was special and hard for me. It’s my first contemporary YA. At first when I had the idea I thought blah this will be easy

Ha! I was certainly wrong but after banging my head against walls, researching all I could, thinking for days, cry blood and go through a roller coaster of emotions, it’s done!! So please forgive me if I leave with this guy. Maybe he wants to cook for me.

It’s time for me to rest a little and enjoy the simple pleasures of life after the hard work. I deserve this:

See you soon!

PS: Stacey I had to post Ian Somerhalder today. I know you understand 😉

By anabelgonzalezdehernando Posted in writing

Writing quotes

 

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If you want to be a writer, you must do two things about all others:  read a lot and write a lot…reading is the creative center of a writer’s life…you cannot hope to sweep someone else away by the force of your writing until it has been done to you. ~Stephen King

 

Taging tasks as easy

 

A few days ago I was watching a program about sewing your own clothes. Up until that moment I always thought it was easy. Why? I don’t know. My mom almost never sews and I don’t know how to do it but I had always thought that it was an easy task to learn. HA! As I saw it if I depended of sewing my clothes I’ll be naked till the end of time.

So this made me think how we usually tag things we never did as easy or simple until we face the day of actually doing them. One example is cooking. When you’re a child you see your mom cook and you think that really looks easy. I could cook anything I want if only they would let me. But the day comes when your mom is not home, you’re old enough and hungry and you can’t even boil an egg. It proves to be harder than you thought.

Don’t make me start with ironing too. You think it’s so easy and relaxing and it’s the road to hell. Yes, I hate ironing and take me ages so my opinion is biased.

All of this brings me to the day we decide we want to write a book. When we are dreaming about it we think it’ll be very easy to put the history and world in our minds into words. It’ll be as simple as sitting down. But then the day we sit down to do it come, we see the white page and we can’t figure out where to start. Every day you sit to continue writing you face that white page and see it wasn’t easy at all.

So which things you thought were easy until you tried them?

The Hush Hush Series

Just yesterday I finished this four book series. An epic story of fallen angels, nephilims and love.

It’s no secret I’m a romantic and I really enjoyed the story of Patch and Nora. I loved the way their love grew and the trust with it. I know there has been a lot of controversy regarding this relationship but really if you see it without prejudicing and going into the same mistake Elizabeth Bennet gets into with Mr. Darcy you’ll see this is not about possession but belonging and it’s mutual.

Becca Fitpatrick did an amazing job with these four books, even when I thought with three it will be even better. She had an intriguing story and always leaved you with a huge cliffhanger that often made me throw the book. It’s a passionate and intense story as every story of war and love, of good and evil.

If you like paranormal I really suggest you read this series. Here’s the blurb:

A SACRED OATH
A FALLEN ANGEL
A FORBIDDEN LOVE
Romance was not part of Nora Grey’s plan. She’s never been particularly attracted to the boys at her school, no matter how hard her best friend, Vee, pushes them at her. Not until Patch comes along. With his easy smile and eyes that seem to see inside her, Patch draws Nora to him against her better judgment.
But after a series of terrifying encounters, Nora’s not sure whom to trust. Patch seems to be everywhere she is and seems to know more about her than her closest friends. She can’t decide whether she should fall into his arms or run and hide. And when she tries to seek some answers, she finds herself near a truth that is way more unsettling than anything Patch makes her feel.
For she is right in the middle of an ancient battle between the immortal and those that have fallen – and, when it comes to choosing sides, the wrong choice will cost Nora her life.

If you’re not yet convinced look at the amazing covers:

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Yes the sexy fallen angel is Patch and yes believe me he is give-me-a-cold-shower sexy. If you don’t believe look at this couple of quotes:

“I could get you to smile like that, and without sales tax."
I whirled around to find the real Patch standing in the fitting room behind me. He was wearing jeans and a snug white tee. His arms were folded loosely over his chest, and his black eyes smiled down at me.
Heat that wasn’t entirely uncomfortable flushed through my body. "I could make all kinds of pervert jokes right now," I quipped.”
Becca Fitzpatrick, Silence

“Nora: You dress to impress.
Patch: No, Angel. I undress to impress.”

Becca Fitzpatrick, Silence

Yes, I have a soft spot for sexy, passionate, guys who would give their life for the girl they love so if you’re like me run to read about Patch. You’ll not regret both to read Nora’s story and see how she grows stronger in every book either.

By anabelgonzalezdehernando Posted in books

On setting goals

 

I know I have set lots of goals before and also I know I tend to set too high goals for me to achieve. What can I do, I’m a dreamer.

Goals are good for getting your purpose on doing something and not falter (even when I do it often) because you want to achieve it and will stick to it.

The problem is when there is no punishment or reward at the end of it, then you may think that it doesn’t matter that you can get a longer deadline. Now my Bestie Stacey and I have this goal/punishment/reward monthly. We set our goals and share it with the other and we have to stick to it.

When you have a friend at the other side also wanting to achieve her goals it’s easier to work harder. Also if what you put on the other side is a punishment that will be hard and a reward you really want to have. For us a day of only reading and not working on anything else, a great reward.

My goals for this month were:

· Read four books (only read 1)

· Catch up in my critiques (this I did)

· Finish drafting my contemporary novel and be hallway revising ( I think I’ll finish drafting on Friday L)

· Revise the first chapters of my previous WIP according with some feedback ( I haven’t got to it)

I have to say that it was a busy month; I’m taking a deep editing course that has lots to learn and work on. But these are the goals I set and I have to face the consequences. I have to go through my punishment of being a good girl and figure what to blog about every day of this week.

I hope this time I set more realistic goals for myself.

I’d love to know about your goals!

By anabelgonzalezdehernando Posted in goals

Differences between movies and books at an emotional level

 

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A few weeks ago I was talking with my dear friend Pao. We were talking about Les Miserables and how it made her cry when she watched the play (several times), but she never been able to read the book.

We kept talking and at some point she said, “The book was just too much. I couldn’t stand it.”

To what I said, “But it’s the same story and you already know it.”

“I don’t know it’s different,” she said.

So we kept talking as we often do (we can talk for days without stopping) and came to the conclusion that there’s a difference at an emotional level between books and movies. When you watch a movie you can empathize with the character but at the end it is happening over there in the screen and to that guy. You can separate yourself from the character even if you cry or laugh. You can only relate.

When you read a book this story and characters live in your mind, being there they take things or traits of you and you become the one living all those things, good or bad. So in my opinion when you read a book the experience becomes more powerful because at some point you can’t separate the character from you. You are the one being in jail, you’re the one dying, and you’re the one marrying. All those emotions are in you and that makes the experience more real.

Of course all this is my opinion. I can’t wait to know what you think.

I’m back and One Lovely Blog Award

 

It’s been a long time, I know. But I have good reasons for being absent all this time. I worked hard with Glowing Shadow and now I’m querying it.

In this time, I learned a lot, met wonderful CPS and friends (including my sister of other mother that is very far away in Australia), entered lots of contests and I’m also finishing the draft of a new YA contemporary novel.

Blogging became really hard with all those things in mind but I’m ready to try again. I want to post at least once a week and I have prepared some subjects that I think you’ll like.

So for my first post back I’m posting about the One Lovely Blog Award. My bestie staceynash nominated me.

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This is basically a blog hop. I have to share seven interesting facts about me:

1. I met my husband through internet and decided to marry him the first day we saw each other face to face.

2. So I married really young, I was nineteen and moved to the other side of the ocean, to Madrid.

3. I speak three languages: English, Spanish and Galician. The two first I can read, write and talk. Galician I can only talk.

4. I think of myself as a citizen of the world, being the daughter of Spanish immigrants in Mexico and Germany. Also there’s the thing that I married a Spanish guy.

5. I learned to read and write English and Spanish at the same time.

6. I read faster in English.

7. I have a severe addiction to chocolate. I can’t stop myself of finishing the package if I open it. And when I make myself stop eating it for weeks I get really cranky. Hulk is peaceful beside me.

And now for my own One Lovely Blog award nominees: I nominee all of you who want to participate!

By anabelgonzalezdehernando Posted in hop